i don't know.

it's almost christmas now..
and i'm doing what i always do/did. i forget to update like i did to my past 982347 diaries thrown in my closet.

right now, my dad is downstairs, assuming that his high school daughter is studying for sat's or writing her apush essay..
but i'm actually just being a disappointment.

i wish i could update more often and had something more interesting to say. i like reading other people's blogs. it's really weird how everyone appears to be the same at first glance. going on with their lives like everyone else, but when you read what they have to say or did, it's like woah, your life's way more interesting than mine.

well, junior year has started apparently.
and like i said, i should be doing my apush essay. i wish i was a lot more productive. but for the past 2 days, i've been sitting around, pretending to do hw when i've actually been facebooking or youtubing. ugh, it annoys me that i can't do anything even if i push myself to do anything unless i'm really pressured. and even when i'm pressured, i don't do what i can at my best.

i really wish it snowed in socal. that would really make me happy. and cold at the same time i guess.

i wish for too many things. but i keep them to myself all the time. i guess that's not a bad thing.